Why does this always happen?
It’s like you tell yourself one thing one day and then everything you do from that day on, always goes back on everything you said you wouldn’t do.
Why are you so fucking self destructive?
I either want to be completely recovered or completely emaciated. It’s the in between that I can’t stand, the limbo of failure where you know that you haven’t done your best at one or the other: dying or living.
— Marya Hornbacher
